I was in the blue horizon between heaven and earth. The days were unchanging and every night I dream the same dream. The smell of damp earth. The scream no one heard. The sound of my heart beating like a hammer against cloth and I would hear them calling, the voices of the dead. I wanted to follow them to find a way out but I would always come back to the same door. And I was afraid. I knew if I went in there I would never come out.

He likes her.. She likes him..

He: Because of the busy schedule he has, he’s afraid to be in a relationship due he can’t commit.. But he msg her almost everyday.. Be it morning, aftnn and night.. He would never call unless if they’re meeting up.. Which happen only 5times dat she counted..

She: She’s feeling all confuse.. She don’t like to be told if someone misses her.. But nothing’s gonna change.. It’s just another.. “I miss you” (erm.. Ya ok.. Words..) She would always look forward to his msg especially the first thing when she wakes up.. She wanna be treated as a lady.. And not her, who always have to make the first move.. Sometimes she thinks, dat she must have been a man in her previous life..

To be in a relationship: Is it really necessary to meet up with each other every single day/night??

What’s your view??

Doctor’s Prescription:

• NO redbull.
• NO alcoholic drinks,
• STOP smoking.
• Do not overworked.
• You CAN’T be too excited.
• Avoid being stress and being depressed.
• Do not cry too much.

Doctor said:

Avoid this, avoid that.. and bla bla bla which I’m kinda shutting my ears.. But the best part when the doctor said.. “You’ve been crying too much.. Stop taking things too dearly to your heart.. It’s not healthy.. It’s as thought you’re puncturing oil to your heart..” haha.. that made me laugh..

I’ve been complaining so much about life back den.. But now that I’ve stop living in denial.. I wish I could turn back time and think about it.. The medications is all I have now.. I wish I could tell someone.. But I can’t.. All I can do now is pray for a miracle.. :)

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

It’s not a question of love
‘Cause our love has never changed
But all the little things keep piling up
And life keeps getting in the way

Don’t make this harder than it is
We both knew it’d come to this
Better now than in a year
More nights of tears and we both hate each other
The fuse is already lit, so how about a final kiss
And just let it go…
And stop the madness before it explodes
Before it’s out of our control
Let’s stop the madness before it explodes
We gotta let it go
Before it all explodes

Somethings we won’t understand
And we’re both so tired of being misunderstood
So let’s just turn and walk away
And hold on to what was good

Oh why can’t I be what you need?
A new improved version of me
But I’m nothing so good
No, I’m nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
Of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you hold me down, fold me in
Deep, deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you,
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don’t see me, you don’t

Here I’m pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
Where I’m tossing and tortured ‘til dawn
By you, visions of you then you’re gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face
When I hear someone’s taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you

I break in two over you,
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don’t see me, you don’t
Now you see me
Now you don’t
Now you need me
Now you don’t